My joy was fading, my heart was unsteady and I was feeling apprehensive about the future. I had to go back to my source. I’m a creative and was looking to other things to draw on more creativity and I was finding myself depleted. I’m committing to a 45 week scripture memorization challenge. Each week until the end of the year I will memorize one scripture. I’m calling these my “Fighter Verses.” I’m praying on the other side of this journey I’m stronger. Would love for you to Join me.
We are powerless to love people and ourselves the way that Jesus loves. We are broken and we are never going to get it perfect. However, Jesus does help us when we lean into HIM.
It is very easy to lean on our spouse, our children, our stuff or our finances to bring us peace. These are the variables in life that can’t always be trusted to bring us joy. They also make us toil, strive and they cause worry and stress.
Here is the thing; I think I know why I lean on other things than Christ at times, because things and people I can try and control. If I’m not careful I will look to Instagram for divine inspiration instead of the creator of the universe. Let’s face it, it’s hard work to put our trust in Jesus. Even our spouse and our job are the constants in our lives, BUT what I’m realizing is they were not designed to hold me up, steady me or bring wisdom in my life. They are simply additions to what is the foundation, they are not strong enough to build a life on.
We have to find ourselves soaking, resting and waiting in God, just as the Lilies of the field do.
My mother-in law sent us this picture of a lily the other day that poppy had gotten for her for valentines day. It was closed and not blooming. It even looked like it was dying, she almost cut it off then one morning she woke up and before her eyes it had bloomed. God spoke to her and told her heart reminding her that He is the one that causes us to bloom.
God had spoken to her about how He brings the things in our lives to bloom. He is the one who created the Lily and causes the flower to flourish; all we have to do is keep it in good soil and watered. She reminded me to not “toil” but to wait in Him and allow Him to carry me. He knows are needs. She urged me to allow my faith to rise. She reminded me that HE is the one that does the mending and the making.
“Look at the lilies and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. 28 And if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?
(Luke 12:27 NLT)
I want to Trust Jesus to cause me to bloom. I want to hang my burdens, worries and heavy baggage on Him because He cares for me.
“I tell you this: Do not worry about your life. Do not worry about what you are going to eat and drink. Do not worry about what you are going to wear. Is not life more important that food? Is not the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the sky. They do not plant seeds. They do not gather grain. They do not put grain into a building to keep. Yet your father in heaven feeds them! Are you not more important that the birds?”(Matthew 6:25-34 NLT)
We are important to God. He sees us and we are valuable to Him, much more valuable than the flowers of the field. Wherever you are today wherever you feel unrest or no peace or even feel very broken, He cares and he wants to take you in His arms and tell you, “I love you, I’m here, and I will make you bloom.”
It was 23 years ago that I crossed the line of faith. I was 14 years old and it was Valentines Weekend. All my friends were going out and partying, but I decided to stay home. My mom worked 18 hour day’s at the salon so I was home alone. I felt such a heaviness. I had never noticed the lingering feeling of hopelessness before, because I think when things are broken in your life and it’s survival you don’t realize you need help until its overwhelmingly apparent that the way you have been living is just not working anymore.
My mom had started following Christ and she was praying for each of her kids. We didn’t grow up in church, nor did we have a bible, the way she was living was so very foreign to all of us. Nevertheless, the feeling of desperation were there. I wanted something more. I had made so many poor choices I just wasn’t sure how to get out of them.
All of the sudden I felt an overwhelming feeling to pray. I had never prayed. That valentines weekend I ask God into my heart and I have never looked back.
I was eager to know Jesus. I was hungry for this HOPE.
Since my decision to follow Christ I have only wanted to grow more. I have wanted more resources and more tools to navigate life.
One way I have navigated my way to freedom is by letting go of my past.
The only way to freedom is letting God into the most painful parts of our lives. When I decided to let him in to my abuse, to the ache of wanting a father and to the areas where I have felt most insecure, he has helped me. Prayer has been a gateway to my freedom.
When I have feet anxious or lost, I PRAY. “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God.” 1 John 5:14
When I feel insecure, I PRAY. “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of LIFE has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death.” Romans 8:1
When I feel unqualified, I PRAY. “Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.” Phil. 3:13
Prayer has been my GRID to FREEDOM in Christ and now it’s my opportunity to give FREEDOM away.
The freedom we experience in Christ is not just for us, it’s for others. The truth I found changed me and it keeps changing me. So, in a cool and cheesy way, I found my TRUE LOVE one VALENTINES. He has never disappointed me, and HIS love is unconditional. I’m grateful, I guess the Chocolates are a bonus!
C.S. Lewis said it right when he said, “Courage is not simply one of the virtues, but the form of every virtue at the testing point.”
In this || Video Episode || I share THREE powerful Truths I learned one summer from White Water Rafting Down a River with some awesome teenagers my freshman year in college. LOL ! Doesn’t that sound fun? It was fun, but it was also brutal. I had more than one thought to throw those kids overboard. 🤣JK
What I learned on the River that week with those teenagers would play such a vital role in how I navigated through difficulty and not around it.
1) Choose to do what’s difficult
AIM TO THE ROCK! We get more courageous when we navigate through the hard stuff, rather than around it.
The principles I learned helped see me through helping my dad navigate his addictions for YEARS and then finding the GUTS to release him to GOD. Releasing people is a stronger way to Trust God for their healing. It doesn’t mean you don’t love them. It just means you know you can’t change them. AIM FOR THE ROCK!
The principles I learned on the RIVER gave me COURAGE to allow God to see me through Postpartum after Ivy was born. To reach out to someone, have a coffee and build a relationship even though I was scared.
2) Trust the Guide
FOR me this is GOD. He know’s better than me. Make sure you are listening to the people who have wisdom. Listen to people who are in the water with you. They know BEST.
3) Who is in your Boat Matters
I had spent so much time with those students. We walked together through painful moments. We laughed. We were family.We trusted each other and we were in it together!
God knew what was down the RIVER (LIFE) ahead of me. HE was there waiting to give me instructions to navigate, as soon as I was ready to LISTEN.
PRAY!!! “Courage is fear that said it’s Prayers.” Dorothy Bernard
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6